While reading it, I came across a poem I wrote when I was 15 years old and it amazed me how I still felt the same way about that particular subject. I'm actually disappointed in myself that I have not grown past those feelings in 15+ years. What's holding me back from truly seeing the woman God sees? The woman God painstakingly created - the woman He gave His son to die for...
Psalm 138 and 139 are two of my favorite Psalms. Words like - "In the day I cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul" and the concept that the Lord has searched me and knows me (everything about me), and He is there wherever I go - "Though I walk in teh midst of trouble, You will revive me", He formed me inside out (my "self" first, then my body). All this I should focus on, and write an updated song to the Lord to add to my ego file.
"We need to rely constantly on the Holy Spirit. We need to remember that Christ dwells in us through the Holy Spirit....It is important that we stand aside and let Him take over in all our choices and decisions. We know that the Holy Spirit prays for us (Romans 8:26), and what a comfort that should be to the weakest of us. A vicorious Christian is one who, in spite of worries, inner conflicts, and tensions, is confident that God is in control and will be victorious in the end. Whatever our difficulties, whatever our circumstances, we must remember, as Corrie ten Boom used to say, 'Jesus is victor!'"
Romans 8:26 reads: In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
When I started this blog in May, I assumed I would keep it up more regularly. But wouldn't you know it, "life comes at you fast!"
Here's just an overview of events:
- My mom and stepdad are getting divorced (as soon as someone fiels the papers)
- My biological dad passed away this week
- His side of the family is crazy to deal with (what family isn't)
- The outside pane of my sliding glass door shattered - can't tell how
- I have a hard time keeping a mower working
- The pump for my pool kept leaking - but it's finally fixed with a new part thanks to Scott Griffin (if you ever need pool help he's the man!)
- Day job is always a little crazy - huge project through September
- Part-time Job with Brewer Auction Service is in full-swing - we've got some great auctions coming up!
- Lots of projects at the church - 175th Anniversay Celebration beginning to take shape, a concert has been scheduled! Mark your calendars - Sunday, August 26!
- And as I've been reminded by other's posts, we just finished an awesome VBS this year! It was so much fun and very good for me to get my mind off family stuff. It's amazing what little kids will do when you have a camera in your hand! They are so funny! And the games...check out this video...
I know some of this is negative stuff - but there's always a funny story in it. And only by the amazing grace of God and the fact that Jesus loves me enough to have died for my sins and grants me salvation and a home to go home to someday, am I able to rise above the crazy. So never think it's me being awesome - it's all God! (the picture is one of my favorite views up the road from me)